things of the deep...

Transient

so i am memorizing psalm 33 and i was reading it out loud in my shower (because you all know that i print out my chapters of the Bible that i am memorizing and laminate them and hang them in the shower, you know that right... and it doesn’t make you think i am too weird.... right......)

and i came to this one line and i stopped to think about it because i have had a deep thinking kind of day....

psalm 33: 7b He puts the deep into storehouses.

and i started to think about all the really deep things that i don’t understand in this world. all the things i struggle with. all of my own sin. those ugly things that i just can’t seem to control in myself (that i don’t really work too hard to control sometimes because they make me feel so good for about 7 minutes)... 

in fact earlier today, i was confronted with once again running my mouth when i should have been quiet and someone misunderstanding something i said and getting all upset at someone else and then the phone calls begin and DARN IT IF I SHOULD JUST NOT RAMBLE ON it would help so many situations...

and the thought that popped into my head was, “i hope this whole Jesus thing is true because i really do need a perfect Savior.”

and i do.

and it is true.

and this is how i know...

because in the shower i saw these words “He puts the deep into storehouses.” on a sheet of laminated paper that i had printed out last week and read about 50 times already (i take a lot of showers) but i had NOT really seen this one line....

He will store those deep and dark places in me that look an awful lot like that angler fish at the top of this post. those scary things, those mean things, those deep dark watery places that threaten to drown you. the unfathomable depths of my soul, He will gather and store for me.

and then i looked up what some of the words meant in hebrew (after i got out of the shower lest you think i have a computer in the shower also. no, silly, you can’t laminate a computer... not that i haven’t tried.)

He puts (grants, permits, sets, sends, brings, causes, delivers) the deep (deep places, abysses, depth, the grave, root word from destruction) into storehouses (treasury, armory, supplies of food or drink).

 He will take those things and lock them away if i give them to Him. He takes the abyss that is my sin, my selfishness, my pride, my jealousy, my insatiable need for everyone to like me, the things that would cause my destruction and He will deliver me. and better yet, He puts it in a treasury, where it can become a weapon for battle. a battle that He has already won. why He doesn’t throw it in the trash, i don’t know. He stores the deep things. He can use them somehow. He can turn ashes into beauty. 

i needed to know that today. i needed to know that He has a place to store the deep. and He does. i have a lot of storage needs. and as we all know, I DON’T HAVE  LINEN CLOSET. 

hmm, how are we feeling about angler fish for dinner?

He puts the deep into storehouses.

i just had to type it one more time. it sounds so good to me...